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Photo Credit: Yonelby Almanzar (IG@platanomaduro23)

Hey There Beauties,

Today is day two of my 30 days of affirmations and I chose to affirm: ” I RADIATE BEAUTY, CHARM, AND GRACE”.

Girl Yes! I radiate beauty, charm, and grace everyday. Right?

I’m not going to lie, the negative thoughts were already flooding my brain as I was reading this to myself. So sad, but so true. I began to question why it was so difficult for me to fully believe this about myself. How can I tell my readers how beautiful and graceful you all are when I myself don’t feel that way (heavy sigh). The truth is, it’s been a bit difficult for me to see myself in the radiant light that I should see myself in everyday. Mostly because I passed down all my beauty to my little munchkin, Zaria. Yes, I gave birth to the most beautiful girl in the world and all the more reason why this is possibly one of the most important affirmations I will read to myself.

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My Sunshine

Zaria has truly been my greatest creation but the nine months that it took to grow her was something serious. My pregnancy  was a roller-coaster of emotions and I constantly felt like I had ridden a roller-coaster after eating a burrito (the morning sickness was real).  It wasn’t until about the 8th month that the pregnancy started to really take a toll. My nose and feet were swollen,  I had gained about 30 pounds and I couldn’t get a good nights rest. It had been weeks since I was able to sleep and to my dismay this was just the beginning of sleepless nights. Needless to say I was cranky. It’s all fun and games till I couldn’t sleep anymore. The worst part was almost over.

After I gave birth to my little one I had no choice but to come to terms with the lack of sleep but for some reason I was under the impression that once I gave birth I would go back to my normal cute self. Well, that didn’t really happen. All the coconut oil and Shea butter in the world could not mend the tiger stripes that appeared nearly everywhere and the 30 extra pounds that were not melting off as fast I’d like. Needless to say, I did not “SNAP BACK”.

So here I am 6 months later and the tiger stripes are still there (sigh) but on the bright side, the 30 extra pounds dropped down to 10 (Woohoo for Zu!). Silver lining: I grew a happy and healthy baby. My self-confidence, however, definitely took a beating, so when I read, “Radiate beauty, charm and grace”, It made me chuckle. Seriously though, confidence is something that is constantly building and something that needs to be affirmed everyday. It doesn’t grow on trees, I can’t buy it at the stores (believe me I’ve tried), and I definitely can’t absorb it through osmosis. How do I radiate beauty, charm, and grace? Simply by treating myself with kindness. I have to be nicer to myself. We all do.

I radiate beauty, charm and grace.

Say that outloud as many times as you need to till it sinks in.

Till next time Beauties,

XOXO

Z