Hi boo,

I woke up in a pretty amazing mood today! Feeling positive and energetic, even though my baby girl woke up at 3 am and again at 6 am (She’s been feeling a little sick ). Zaria is 7 months old and 25 lbs of pure happiness  I am enjoying every moment of watching her grow, but(yes there is a but), growing her for nine months took every bit of energy from me. I didn’t realize, until now, how weak my body has become and how much work I have left to build it back up. My pregnancy left me with a tattered up body. It’s hard to look at myself  and wonder when exactly is the “bounce back”. Don’t get me wrong, I would do it all over again, but no one prepares your for what happens after your baby arrives.

We hold ourselves to unrealistic standards and I just don’t want to do that anymore. I want to be physically and mentally fit for myself and my baby girl. I know how hard it is to look in the mirror and nitpick at all the things you can change but starving myself to fit into a pair of jeans and feeling guilty about eating a slice of pizza is not the type stress I want to be under. Nor is it something I want to teach my daughter. The last few weeks I’ve been working on my eating habits and exercising for a healthier body. I want to be able to appreciate myself and what my body can do. This body went through a transformation. I grew a human for crying out loud. To subject this body to the unrealistic standards of society would be an insult. Why am I so worried about bouncing back to a pre-baby body. Why are we all so worried about looking like a model? I rather be glorified for who I am than what I look like. I want to be the best mommy/ friend/wife/sister/daughter that I can be. It takes so much courage to love yourself as you are and embrace your imperfections but we need to appreciate the fact that all of us don’t come in a one size fits all. It’s ok to be whatever, size, shape, weight that you are. We are all bad ass women, in our own unique ways.