We are just one week away till the end of February and this months challenge has been exactly that, a challenge! I wanted to implement better eating habits and also begin a work out routine that works for me, but it’s been a little hard keeping up. Which made me wonder why I’ve been slacking on these work outs knowing that I want to shed a few LBs. Could it be that I am feeling slightly more comfortable now or am I flat-out being lazy? or could it possibly be that I’m feeling guilty about taking an hour or so for myself?
Yep, that’s it! Here comes the GUILT TRIP
Let me just say that I love being a Mom/ Sister/ Friend/ Wife but it is damn hard trying to be all these people while simultaneously trying to get my body back, feel sexy, & care for myself. Yes, I did sign up for this life and no, I don’t regret it one bit but I also don’t want to feel guilty about wanting to take some time out for myself. I come home from work feeling guilty that I’ve spent my entire day away from my child. Not to mention that I’m starving and I have to make dinner. I rush through cooking so that I have time to play with my baby, teach her new things and let her know that mommy is always here. Healthy meals go out the window if im rushing. She also clings to my hip the moment I get home because she misses her Momma. Needless to say, no, I don’t want to take another 30 min to an hour for a work out, or cooking, or cleaning. It’s a double edge sward. I feel guilty for the extra time it takes to work out but then I am hard on myself when I don’t work out. I have goals that I want to achieve but it I feel like there isn’t enough time in the day to add a workout, not to mention, it’s low on the priority list.
So, if not now, then when? When is it okay for me to take time out for myself and why am I feeling so guilty when I do? It’s a constant battle with my mind to remember that I, too, need some time for myself and that’s why it’s so important that I practice self-care. I’ll never get anything done if I continue to feel guilty about working on myself. I know that it’s necessary to put myself first so that I can be at my best for my family but mostly I have to stop feeling guilty and be completely unapologetic about caring for me. I owe it to my family and I owe it to myself.
“Self-compassion is simply giving the same kindness to ourselves that we would give to others. ” – Christopher Germer